لحن العودة إلى فلسطين

The following clip.. is intended to be silent... to be delivered to people through other senses rather than reading.. with music.. with the truth.. with honesty.. and with emotions that can not be described in any different way...

This clip is produced by Al-Quds TV to inaugurate their TV channel..

Enjoy..

42 cm squared

Eid Mubarak

كل عام وانتو بخير

كل عام وبلادنا وشعبنا بخير

وكل عام والمحبة جامعيتنا

What history tires to forget...

Apparently i've been.. or better said my readers have been experiencing some difficulties using my blog. Well not reading it obviously.. but commenting on it. Dunno what exactly was the problem.. but my fellow blogger Naser has pointed out that problem to me and thanks to his note i changed the template and made some blog makeover hoping that would solve the problem and refresh a bit the boring background/template i was using.

So here is the outcome of the "makeover" and the commenting problem no longer exists. I would like to express my apology to all those who have tried to comment during the past period and their comments weren't published.. but i didn't actualy know that there was a problem and that the commenting was disabled. I hope that won't be repeated again. :)

That being said, during my blog makeover... i decided to give my blog a more specific direction.. and purpose. Although mainly during the past 2 years of its existance.. it has been a runaway corner where some ideas emerged.. or some frustrations were expressed as well as some topics that have some historical conotations. Now, after some experiements.. i noticed that the topics that provoke me to write are those concerned with some attempts to change history or better said to create fake history. That doesn't only mean political history.. but everyday events and facts.. that some try to forget.. or other try to hide and eventually become forgotten history. For that purpose, i will try to go for more hidden topics and stories.. about our history.. about our nation.. about our people.. in both Jordan and Palestine.. as well as my second homeland Macedonia.

Hence, "what history tries to forget..." is going to be the new theme of the blog.. that will touch many stories.. events.. people.. and destinies. Stay Tuned! :)

Palestine : I resist!

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الحلم العربي

Going back in time remembering MJ and his music.. and flipping through my memories.. i came across this song.. i remember how powerful it was at that time.. and how much energy can put in you.. and determination to make the Dream come true.. now.. I looked it up.. and found it on Youtube.. listend to it.. the impact is the same.. i still want to have the dream coming true.. but did i do anything in the past 10 years since the first time i heard this song.. to make this dream come true? No.. i wonder what can i do now.. so that 10 years from now i won't feel that bad as today...

*sigh*

Valley of Peace

The "Two Seas Canal" project... is apparently transforming into the "Vally of Peace" initiative. A project that is supposed to "create" peace.. and bring the peoples of the region together... Take a look at the clip below.

*Blog About Palestine Day* - Silence

time: dawn ..15 of May 1948 

place: Palestine..

Silence in the house... Henna* was gazing through the open window. The sky was clear.. she could see the stars sparkling here and there, she felt a little spring breeze coming into her face, she looked up and said with a slow voice almost sobing : "ya Ummana ... e7meena bukra" 

She closed the window, and went out of the bedroom. She didn't want to wake Kareem up, he has spent the entire day at his father's shop discussing weather to open tomorrow or not... rumors have spread that tomorrow will be the day. 

Henna went into the kids room. Layla was sleeping and hugging her pilow.. but Luka was awake.. he pretended at first that he was sleeping.. but when Henna approached to him.. his worried eyes sparkled in the darknes...

Henna: why are you still up son? 

Luka: i couldn't sleep... i am worried... will dad let me go out tomorrow and play in the neighbourhood ? i heard him talking that it will be a very bad day tomorrow.. and that we should all stay at home. 

Henna: Inshalla it will be fine..

Luka: but mom, what if .. - Henna : It will be fine..come here....

She hugged her son tightly, knowing that it won't be fine.. 

Silence again... Henna's mind travelled again.. she remembered her mother and father.. who taught her how to love her home.. how to love her family... and how to cherish laughter and peace.. her eyes got filled with tears the minute she started thinking.. will she be able to teach her kids all that? will they survive the next day..? 

Many have already left.. but Kareem wanted to stay.. its the house of his grandfather.. the family legacy.. how can he leave it?  he wanted Layla to be given away to her future husband from the yard of the very same house.. he wanted to see his grandchildren playing under the same tree he used to play.. it was the best time of his life.. his memory was so vivid in his dream.. even though he was sleeping.. his mind was awake... 

...

the 16th of May 1948 came...nothing was left... Silence in the house. 

* The names mentioned above.. are fictitious.. Any resemblance to real persons.. living or dead, is purely coinsidence.. the event however.. has happend on the 15 of May 1948.. in Palestine.

On Double identity...

I wanted to join my voice and gratitude with AquaCool to Fadi Andrawos for his piece "Palestine and Lebanon". Its probably the first singer who attempted to approach this delicate "double identity" issue. Why? I mean why hasn't anyone before stumbled upon this problem that many many Palestinians scattered around the world in general or the Arabic countries in Particular?

I believe identity is created by direct interaction of the person with his present society, with his parents roots and with the personal belifes and ideologies. But often there are certain conflicts in such mixture.

Fadi Andrawos in his song "Palestine and Lebanon", adressed his personal double identity of being a Palestinian refugee in Lebanon. Some Palestinians may argue, that by speaking the lebanese accent or by declaring himself being Lebanese that he is forgetting his roots.. and that his not loyal to his own people.

He is only a simple example of thousands of refugees.. everywhere.. including those in Jordan.

Many times during my study period at the University, i faced the very direct question... "where are you from?" Are you Jordanian or Palestinian.. ? You have to choose.. either tick or tack!

And I couldn't help but thinking in myself.. why can't I be both? does that make me less of a Palestinian? if i feel obligated to respect the dignitity and soverenity of the country hosted my grandparents when they were refugees. Or if I declare my self as a Palestinian (even though i hold a Jordanian citizenship) ,does that make me less of Jordanian? or maybe accused of being a "careless" Jordanian...and thus treated as a second class citizen..?

I guess that issue, in the previous generations was solved by the Arab nationalism ideology. (though that doesn't resolve the situation palestinians faced in non-arabic countries). Ideology that at that time united everyone against the Israeli agression, but failed these days.

It gets even more complicated if you travel. Again the very same question... Where are you from? Am I Palestinian ? Am I Jordanian? :S so i settle down with answering "I am from Jordan".. but if the one who hears this question knows a bit about Jordan.. he will be like: " are you Palestinian or Jordanian Jordanian ?! So back in the loop.

Yes it is hard , to have double identitiy.. I am not Jordanian with Palestinian originis, i am not Palestinian staying temporarily in Jordan, i am not Jordanian Jordanian not Jordanian Palestinian.. I am not Palestinian Jordanian... I am simply both. Not 50 % Jordanian and 50 % Palestinian.. but 100 % Palestinian and 100 % Jordanian.

Yes we can be both, and am so proud of both as i happen to be proud of even anther whole issue of having even third identity.. the Macedonian one...

Mira Awad : Palestinian Singer to Represent Israel on the Eurovision Song Contest 2009

This years Eurovision Song Contest to be held in May in Moscow - Russia, is going to witness a un-expected move by the Israeli Broadcasting Television. They decided to send an Arabic & Hebrew Duet to the prestigious european song contest.

For that purpose the duet selected was by two female singers: Mira Awad and Noa and their song titled "There must be another way". Both singers have a long history of Peace Advocacy of the Palestinian Israeli Conflict, and the Israeli's decision to send them certainly has a message folded between the lyrics of the song to the world.

Mira Awad - Born in Rameh in 1975 in Galilee - Occupied Palestine, to an Arab father from the Galilee (Anwar), a physician by profession, and a Bulgarian mother (Snejanka) , currently she lives in Tel-Aviv. Awad is currently starring in a play about the Israeli-Palestinian conflict at the Cameri Theater. She became an instant star on Israeli television after appearing in the sit-com "Arab Labor"and "Noah's Ark".

While she has been the butt of criticism on either sides of the Arab-Israeli divide, she has many fans in both camps. The debate has exposed the uneasy position of Israel's Arabs, those Palestinians and their descendants who remained after 1948.

Achinoam Nini or Noa is born in Tel Aviv in 1969 Noa lived in New York City from age 2, but orignally her family is from Yemen.Noa has recorded numerous songs in Italian, French, Spanish, Galician, English, Arabic, Hebrew, Thai, Hindi, Yemenite Jewish and folk & Arabic pop.

Noa have collaborated frequently with Arab and Palestinian artists from around the world, including Khaled from Algeria, Nabil Salameh from Lebanon, Handallah from Nablus ,Rim Banna from Nazareth, Amal Murkus from Kfar Yasif, and Mira Awad from Kfar Rameh. These collaborations enable the duo to express, musically, their belief in the power of communication and dialogue as a means of promoting peace and understanding.

On November 4, 1995, Noa was on stage performing for an audience of 50,000 at the historic peace rally in Tel-Aviv just minutes before the late Yitzhak Rabin was assassinated.

In September 2002, she included a duet in her album "Now" with Israeli-Arab singer Mira Awad, a cover version of the Beatles' song We Can Work It Out in an effort to promote peace between Israelis and Palestinians.

Will leave you with the song they will sing at the Eurovision Song contest 2009 in Moscow :

Info: Wikipedia

We will not go down...

Ever since Israel went mad again 15 days ago, i tried many times to write...Every time i start the post, i ended up deleting it... i just lost all the abilities to express the mixture of sadness, anger, disappointment and hope...
I tried to wait and hope that it will end, that i will wake up and open the TV with a ceasefire news... But things went even uglier...

But i found something that truely expressed everything inside... most of you maybe have already listend to it.. but the following song is exactly how i feel.. is exactly how i hope the world will see Us.. how i hope the world will now that We will not go down..

We will not go down

In the night, without a fight

You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools

But our spirit will never die

We will not go down

In Gaza tonight

END THE OCCUPATION

FREEDOM FOR PALESTINE

R.I.P. Mahmoud Darwish (13 March 1941 - 9 August 2008)

Identity Card (1964)

"Record!

I am an Arab

And my identity card is number fifty thousand

I have eight children

And the ninth is coming after a summer

Will you be angry?

Record!

I am an Arab

I have a name without a title

Patient in a country

Where people are enraged . . ."

Quotations:

"I thought poetry could change everything, could change history and could humanize, and I think that the illusion is very necessary to push poets to be involved and to believe, but now I think that poetry changes only the poet."

"We should not justify suicide bombers. We are against the suicide bombers, but we must understand what drives these young people to such actions. They want to liberate themselves from such a dark life. It is not ideological, it is despair."

New Palestine

Red and dark sky
the door bell is ringing, silence
a soldier and a small kiddo are standing behind it
but only one of them is real...

Children are screaming in agony
mothers are falling in despair
houses are torn down
this is the 21st massacared Palestine

The door is opened
the soldier comes in
tired from all the fired gun shots
the kiddo goes to the kitchen
it all seemed to him new

exhausted mothers walk together
holding pictures of that small kiddo
with pain, anxiety and desperate looks
but with pride, dignity and heroism

Our kiddo thanks the soldier
for so he helped him to go to paradise
for so he made Paradise our new Palestine
filled with innocent looks and honest hearts

Thats our new Palestine
from there comes our support
we will not give up
you will not be forgotten